It's time to go... Josef

Funny coincidence; the year I am away from Australia, is the year Big Brother returns to our screens in Australia. The coincidence being; had I not done this, I would have applied. And inevitably, after two weeks, all of Australia would have heard the words “It’s time to go…. …. …. Josef”.

I am somewhat ready and OK. Except for a few things:

• The sadness on Sherwin’s face reflects the feelings I have kept bottled up inside me. It is so difficult. I struggle to keep my own emotions in check.

• Packing for 6 months (I return in July for a quick stop over and re-packl) for multiple climates, in one backpack is a brutal experience.

• Seeing what is happening with the project I envisaged at work many years ago, being done without me, gives me very mixed emotions.

• Launching myself, solo, into the unknown actually reveals a side to myself that verifies… I need to become stronger in who I am.

• My cat has watched me pack… and after 14 years knows that I am going. So she is acting out in various ways. None of which are happy.

• I busted my rib at my going away party… pretty badly. So that has been limiting.

I am leaving a lot to the last minute. A lot. But it’s easier to keep having things to do and prepare, then have too much time to dwell on the choices I made. I know they are the right ones… but time to reflect does not help that feeling of resolution.

Next post… Holland. If I haven’t got frostbite from the weather… I shall update then.

Cheers,

JC